Vampyre

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Can anyone have a relationship with a devil living inside them?
Red and black aura. The colors were different at one time in my life,
Black and white.
Life would be different if I could stop seeing red.
But life is not worth living when you’re dead.
The lust for blood, the rush for flesh,
one thing is alive, soon to be skinned
I feel it all going to my head.

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Dark inside the tomb, where I rest
I can hear the thunder of day break.
Like a lightning bolt from Zeus, It’s awake.
Dracula’s wings, shade the moon and take flight.
Up in the sky, the predator stalks its prey,
to turn the living and feast before the day,
the beast no longer inside,
It works all night for the hunt is timed,
the able bodies sleep in a state of sublime.

The windows shut, never stopped the crime.
The victim lays with dreams of sheep,
not aware of the wolf at the chimney sweep.
Coldness flows up their spine,
The blood sucker begins the dark climb.
Down the chimney like old saint nick,
The beast begins his descent.
While the hairs on her neck become erect,
the vampire feasts on the innocent neck.
Like a snake it coils up, its fangs clench,
the liquid life comes pouring out,
Gulping the blood as it becomes more alive.

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Spreading like a disease, the poison takes hold
the headaches come first,
the spinning is next, followed by the tremendous ach,
the transformation is almost complete,
a double soul,
the dead looking for a taste of being awake.
The friends and family notice the pain,
too afraid to alert them in any case they break.
The windows are asked to be shut,
as the sun begins to hurt.
Burning like a fire caught in the wind.
A slow steady breeze begins to blow,
at first the lungs become broken.
As the window is left reluctantly open,
the wings begin to break the skin,
the blood spills out like the depths of Satan’s splendor
The demon has grown inside her.

No where to run, and no where to hide,
The devil becomes stronger one at a time.
The vampire hatchling is left alone,
The family and friends no longer want to condone.
At night she spreads her wings to take flight,
Looking for her master, owner, in spite.
Only becoming what the holy say “rotten,”
In the cavernous depths her soul has been forgotten.

The devil’s work, the war for life has begun,
the dead bodies pile, while the awaken stumble.
Progress is losing, blind from the serpent at work.
Wondrous claims, and chauvinist’s reign.
The blind are naïve,
without the idea of fight, fright plagues the mind,
I wonder if the devil will ever surrender,
as he becomes the master, the darkness becomes the hereafter.
Will our souls be remembered or be a wisp on god’s laughter?
Love can only cure the vampire.

God’s only disappointment shadowed by his hand at our birth.
While the scourge of the underworld walk the earth,
unaware of the heaven that god has left them.
Large illusionary mountains that surround the basin
Rushing water flows through the streams, giving life to those who can see.
The dead can only hope to resurrect and mend.
Without the vampire’s bite, they will never see the skies above them.
Moss gathers around the old aspen tree,
one starts its desires to be a part of Eden,
The paradise in Genesis is but a thought amongst the stone and rock.
Gods defeat came at the hands of a serpent with it’s bate of the idea of ultimate knowledge,
the forbidden fruit.
We were deceived with the ability to become one with him a mere illusion held by the masses.
We are left with the only hope to attain the devil’s distractions.

The cosmos, we wander, like a lost puppy looking for its owner.
The amazing discoveries we have yet to pilgrimize.
Satan’s minions have ascended the illusion of time.
Will the vampires of the earth, become worthy of the astrological signs?
We will never know the beginning or end,
May we hold one another friends among friends.
Brother upon brother, and men among men.
Are destiny is the heavens, let us begin.

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We Were Born

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We were born,
To be or not to be,
Ripened from the rays of the sun,
and boiled from the particles in the ocean,
We are not to be diagnosed and put into a shell,
To be the rotting survivors of a dept driven country,
To silence the jazz of hundreds of feet marching towards income,
We were not born to be the pill popping, cigarette burning, yellow teethed nations, decaying in the light.
To be a softer sensitive mobile everlasting,
Bursting from the rockets of progression, and overcoming the candid fat programmed in our bodies.
Let ideas whisper through the ears like a wailing drum, and a screeching banshee.
We were to arrive without time, and without being crammed in a sock drawer never to shine,
Let the electricity flow through the inner sarcophagus,
Awaken past the dirt and worms,
To be the all seeing entity of Cronus, while the spirals of the universe continue to spin.

We were born,
without hands for gloves, and feet for shoes,
punctured through the embodiment of the gods,
and left to the moonlight, and to the day.
gobs of pollution sprayed through a hose unto the dead,
While young flood the streets looking for something to believe in.
The pharaohs of our time must smile upon us, we are their own private joke.
Children play with rubber diseases copulating one to another,
The playground never imagined to be without the stretching tall blades of grass.
To be locked in a cage, without antithetical beliefs like a copy machine with never ending ink.
we are not to be the lackadaisical demons jumping for television remotes,
The reverence of ants in a line have more relevance then us in our time.

We were born,
not to shout at those who appear weak, or demise the poor,
As an elephant never forgets, grief becomes what we are at best.
Do not stand upon the branches of trees with the fingers reached towards the clouds,
Be the branched fingers that shoot like a gun towards the red violet horizon.
We are to be happy, and let us be one,
Do not only dream, but become what we dream.
the chaos and destruction will poison our land, but we can be a different sort of man.
the man that we were born to be,
let us come out from the womb with our arms raised to the sky,
Bloodied, and pure like the lone wolf’s howl to the midnight stars.
We are, so that we can be.
fighting for us to all be free.

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Concrete War

Is war the last possible creative act?
The proprietors of banks looking for gain against the weak and poor.
The building up of disagreement to the point of anger and rage,
Until feelings are no more, their importance goes up in flame.
Fire from buildings, smoke for clouds, and blood like water.
Evil? or possibly jazz music from Satan’s mouth. The night looks darkest in the light,
as the body toll raises from each day and night.
Music from the marching drones, the bombardment of homes, and the destruction of souls.
Fight, fight, fight, until the battle is won,
The destruction is creation through the mad mans tongue.
The end is nigh, the light is black, and the black is absent
Until the charred and boiled flesh of the poor crisps in the embers.

The blood boils, and the sanity unravels.
War creates the greatest of troubles.
The automobiles assemble with the tools of intuition,
Missiles and tanks, Motorbikes crank, with letters from loved ones whispering “come home.”
The cracking of bones and the fruition of stones.
The more people die, the same become born.
All apart of the assembly line entering our homes.
Wouldn’t mankind rather create then destroy?
Or is destruction apart of the creation moving in the motion of Fibonacci’s spirals?
One must understand that with life comes death, and with light comes dark,
the moon is nothing without the sun,
but one must die without being buried in a tomb.
All coming from the totalitarian creationism, for gain and wealth must start from one man’s debt.

One man, can be the cause of such great death.
The names are remembered through memorials, like a cold breeze on a November morning.
The flowers picked for respect, left at the graves of men that no longer exists.
And yet those flower’s death’s are all symbolic of the life’s that have been plucked.
Though existence is the greatest creation, War seems to be the last possible form of our extinction.
As September reigns, text books are made.
A short paragraph seems to justify the death of man.
As children study a date and time period of are forgotten lands.
Only to teach them that death is not to be feared,
As life is only a stepping stone to something larger, a beautiful unknown.
No, life is not to be forgotten, and the unknown will stay begotten.
Logically I assume that we must all live for today.

Photography is Dead

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This post, no doubtingly, will offend some people and I feel that before I begin this rambling I will mention and remind the reader that this is one man’s opinion. A man that is only a blogger, and who’s opinion should not effect your own. I might start this post with the idea of Adobe Photoshop. Lets picture this wonderful piece of software, and might I call it a murderer of an art form. I love how simple it has made editing and touching up photos. I can get the right colors and the exact exposures to bring out beautiful displays on any photo I take with almost any camera. I can do this all with a touch of a button by using the so called “lazy-man” professional photographer, PHOTOSHOP! My experience is amateur to say the least and I have never called myself a photographer, I have minimum use with a dark room going back to when I was in High school. However if my pictures from my phone can look as good as someone who labors away climbing mountains, waiting for the right exposure and also in a dark room testing their photos, I have to say that Photography is dead and no longer can be considered an art.

I recently took a beautiful woman on a date to a nice restaurant and we began to talk about our likes and dislikes about certain things. A causal get to know you type date, in a fun atmosphere with good food. To protect the woman I will call her Shelly. Shelly had dark silky hair, big hazel eyes, and a nose that was a little crooked. She wasn’t the most beautiful woman, but she had moments of angelic charm. She asked me what my hobbies were and when she found out that I enjoyed art she rushed right in and said “I am an artist.” Surprised, I looked at her and said “You are too good looking to be an artist.” She smiled to amuse me, and said “no really I am. I am a photographer.” It was then that a shiver of horrific animosity climbed up my spine. I tried to calm myself and take a deep breath and while biting my tongue to not say something ridiculous or offensive, I asked “What do you like to take pictures of?” I should have left it at “I am a photographer” and change the subject to her house cat. She took the question and rolled with it like a 16 wheeled truck on an icy road, I could tell this was going to test every pretentious bone in my body.

She said “Oh I take pictures of everything. I love going hiking and getting pictures of the scenery. The other day I was out with a few friends and we were up the canyon and I saw this beautiful black bird in the sky. I took a picture of that and I’m really excited to get the pictures developed.” I told myself, wait a minute pull back on the reigns a bit, after all she did say a magical word “develop.” Perhaps I misjudged her, and obviously I could be wrong about my assumption of this Nazi Photoshop Queen. So I asked “Developed? I’m not exactly clear on the meaning of developed now a days. Would you mind telling me what it is that you do to “develop your photos?”

“It’s nothing really. I just hook up my camera to the computer and then edit them with Photoshop. Once I do that I put them on Facebook for everyone to see.” She paused to take a bite of our chips and salsa then continued “my friend is creating me a website so that I can sell them online. He says I’m really good.” Oh god! I tried to stay pleasant but what the hell I can let the hounds off the leash, I thought. “Photoshop, yes that is a wonderful tool. However I don’t think that the ability to use Photoshop and upload pictures on to a computer no longer attests to being a photographer or even an artist.” I could tell that she did not like my statement. The king of making dates awkward was at it again, after all being an opinionated person these days is difficult for most people to stomach. I’ll admit that if I was somewhat mildly interested in this woman I would have been able to shove some type of appetizer in my mouth and allow her to go on with her artistic endeavor, but poor Shelly wasn’t all that interesting. The dogs were finally running a-muk all over the restaurant.

“You know” I went on, “I find it interesting that every man, woman, and child claim to be photographers. Especially with this day and age where we have cameras on our phones, tablets, computers, its as if everyone can call themselves a photographer or an artist. Lets look at Facebook and the social media sites, we post pictures of our cats, dogs, what we had to eat, what the sunset looks like, hell…what we look like, and then we add a hash tag duck face selfie after that. To me, a photographer as an artist, has to fall completely in love with the entire process. A photographer makes the effort to climb up mountains, wait for the exact sun to hit the exact point, the right angle has to be thought through, the right exposure to the lens has to be placed and then after all the waiting and second guessing, finally snap the photo. After that the photographer has to fall in love with the romance of the different exposures and then developing the photos themselves over time in a dark room. This is the art form of photography. It is only after all of this, that one can call themselves an artist of photos. Too much, now a days, things are too easy for us, there is no real challenge or task to creating a beautiful picture. Anyone can go out on a hike, snap a picture with their phone, bring it home and edit it to look like an Ansel Adams original.”

Shelly replied with the best answer that she could, “Well I’m not one of these people. Like I said before I go out on hikes and work for my pictures. So what if I use Photoshop to edit my pictures, its a great tool.” I had to agree with her. She did go on hikes to take pictures, and Photoshop is a great tool. Afterwards I changed the subject quickly in order to ease the tension in the air, and the date ended fine after a lot of ass kissing.

This conversation of photography being an art has sat in my brain for far to long after my date with Shelly. Shelly has no idea that her comments about her being an artist made me want to puke and luckily I was able to keep the food down that we ordered from the restaurant. Any art form to me is about the detail, pain, the meaning, the expression. Yes, photography can be a beautiful art form. Although with the recent advancement of Photoshop and other software, the romance and strife of taking a picture no longer is needed. Thus the art of photography is dying. Where there is ease, there is no great accomplishment and art is an accomplishment.

2012 Overture (The Blueprint)

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2012 Overture (Blueprint)

I had an idea back in 2012 while listening to the great Tchaikovsky’s 1812 Overture. The idea has taken me down a wild road full of growing and bettering myself. The idea is displayed in my new painting shown here. It truly is a dedication piece to the song. I have worked on it for over a year, certain touch ups while staring at it and changes was the reason for how long it took to create. I also moved to Seattle Washington during the process, and then back again a few months later. I hope, as with all artists, that this will be received well. Especially after pouring my entire soul and heart into the painting. God bless.

Hopeless Romantic

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By: Cam

There are moments in time,
that I feel this DARK world
would rather have the appearance of love.
Then the actual SWELLING of the heart,
the mind BENDING mood,
The LOSS of breath,
the dance of courtship,
Love.

God! I hope I’m WRONG.
I can’t believe in a world that only cherishes the APPEARANCE of love,
instead of the real melodic bliss of it.
But the nights grow darker, and the wars continue to RAGE.
The hate begins to bubble like a BOILING pot over an unstoppable flame.
I might ask a QUERY?
Instead of all the dripping blood, the back stabbing pain, and window Shattering loss,
Can we not see a way to love?

In conclusion, I’m a HOPELESS romantic.

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Frequency to Grow

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There is a frequency that we don’t see, a special vibrating color floating through our bodies,
Its elaborate ploy is not harmful, but evolving the way we see, the way we think.
Let us open the door and let it in, let it sink.
One can only hope to feel the enormous weight of color rushing through the heart,
The emotion is only the start.

The beating of a drum, rushing blood, driving the wheel to the mind
Like a loud catchy song, or a bond never to be broken between loved ones.
Two friends hand in hand can change the world, but without the frequency all is lost.
The special guidance of our subconscious, I pray touches all of us.
All of us have a great power, although the guilty keep the tides at bay.
Plaguing us with sex, violence, and the ever existence of the difference of race.
If we focus on the animal in all of us, we will never set a pace.
Never grow, never progress.

Open up the subconscious, turn off the ignorance because a great lie is that we are in bliss.
Monkey see Monkey do, is not a future I want for me or you.
May we walk a different road then our fathers,
Let us stumble, and stub our toes,
For it is only through failure that we will grow.

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Mother’s Day

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I feel the need to share something about mother’s on this day, as I am sure a lot of you feel the same way. I like so many have had the privilege and honor to know some amazing women (mother’s), my mother being one of them. My mother, I have constantly said she is the glue to my family. She is the one that when things get crazy and difficult she always reminds us that we are a family and we must stick together. Of course she does this in her own special way, and those of you who know my mother can probably attest to this. Although this note is not only about how deeply I love my mother but all mothers.

I have been blessed when my life has had times of sorrow and need, by a mother. When I was younger I jaunted to a foreign land (Brasil) and was thrust into the different culture without any idea of how I would adapt. I am not ashamed to admit that I was culture shocked, almost dumbfounded by the way things were in this country. I was depressed and felt hopeless in a way that I couldn’t do anything to help the wonderful people there. Although it came to me long after my trip there that it wasn’t they who needed help but me. I met a woman who I am luckily still friends with today. She didn’t have much, but she had love for her family and her daughter. For some reason, possibly out of need, we connected and she took care of me. When I was sick, she provided me with medicine and something to eat. She talked to me for hours even though my Portuguese was horrendous. She was a mother to me, and I am forever grateful for her. Without her, I would not have been able to see the beauty of Brasil. Beauty that has changed my life forever. I place a picture below that reminds me of Brasil. It is a mother and a baby monkey, as I saw many of them in the trees by the place that I lived.
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Love is so much apart of being a mother. A Love from a mother can shed its brilliant light on all of us in different ways. There is a time in my life that I don’t talk about, mostly because it is difficult for me, but on this day I would like to share a little bit about that life. I think I must start this off by a quote from Alan Watts that can relate to the topic of mothers or in this case motherhood. He says “We should not look at how we are made, but how we have grown.” Often time in life it is the mom who help their children grow. In 2008 I was blessed with the knowledge that a woman I was in love with was pregnant. My little child was going to be born. I couldn’t imagine that the greatest creation one can create was happening to me and I would be a father but with all things in life come complications. The mother and I had our differences and we both were young at the time. Although I loved her and my soon to be daughter, deep down we both knew that we were unable to give the child the life it needed and deserved. I am thankful for her mother being clear minded enough to see this. Through many complications and a few hardships we decided to give our baby girl up for adoption. The mother of my child, helped grow her for 9 long immensely difficult and stressful months. This mother was the start of this special child’s growth. This mother cared and loved her so deeply that when she was born she was a healthy baby. For that I am forever grateful to the mother, as later on in my life this child was the only reason that I am still alive. (Another story perhaps for another time) Might I also say that the strength of this mother was something that only I can explain by heroes of old, Hercules for some reason comes to mind. Strength that can only be called a myth by people who have never seen it. However I have seen this strength and I have felt this strength so I know that it exists. Its the strength of a mother. There are few who would be strong enough, intelligent enough, to give their baby up for adoption while admitting to themselves that they are not ready for motherhood.
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This was a time of a dark spiral in my own life, as I had lost almost everything I had loved and cared about. My parents were losing their home, my father had lost his job and I watched as they received no answers to their misery. In my own circumstance I had lost my job, my car, my child, and the woman I loved and in my despair luckily I was blessed by another mother. Sometimes it seems people are in our lives for a short season, but for profound reasons. She was the mother, to the daughter that bore my child. She showed compassion to me, and when I was alone she gave me some advice that I will never forget. She told me about her own life and some of the stories that she has had that helped shape my perspective, but there is one thing that stands out and I can’t forget. She said to me “Its ok to cry. Its ok to be upset.” In a world where a man can’t cry, where a man has to be strong, I have always felt ashamed of crying until she said it was ok. Sometimes its the strong that cry. She then said something that I felt was great advice. She said “You can cry, cry your heart out. Go home and do this, but only do it tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and you have to be strong for whatever happens next.” It is important to remember in difficult times to stay positive and keep your head up. Another magnificent mother blessed my life. It is only natural and fitting that her daughter would be so strong, because she was raised by a woman that was equally strong in her own way.

I come to the end of my post, but not without saying something about the Mother who adopted my little girl. She was a woman that I hardly knew at the start of the adoption, but luckily has become a close friend to me through the past few years. In life we are expected to make choices, to change, to grow. It was important to me to see my daughter grow and be given a life that I couldn’t give her. Something a man like myself must swallow his pride on, because I, myself, was unable to give her the life that I wanted to see her have. Through the years I have watched from a short distance of how my little girl is growing. I guess its a fatherly instinct. This mother (and father) has treated my little girl (now theirs) with a love that is so powerful and amazing that one can only compare it to the Sun. The sun is what gives life. This mother has not only loved her as her own, but given her a beautiful life. This precious little girl is now happily growing everyday and as this mother shines like the sun, there becomes no doubt in my mind that she and her husband are supposed to raise this little girl. And although I will always love this little girl with all of my being, I know she is being taken care of and loved by two amazing people.

elephant mother (I have always loved elephants because of how consciously aware they are. They are an animal that constantly loves and watches over their children. I don’t know of a better animal I could choose to represent such love)

I couldn’t be more grateful to all the mothers that have blessed my life. I can only hope that my post might bring to light how important women and mothers are to each and every one of us. The Dali Lama once said “The world will be saved by the western woman.” I couldn’t agree more. Happy mothers day to all woman, who want kids, have kids, give kids up for adoption, and to all those woman who love. All of you make this world a better place and gives me hope for the future. Happy Mothers Day.

Tragedy of the Muse (Drink up Me Hearties)

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The Tragedy of the Muse By: Cam

A woman once told me that I am nothing more than anthropomorphic. Somehow I was not amused.
“We are daft and true, and fill our bodies with food. There is nothing else for us to do, you however are a hapless muse.” Spoken by delighted people, vigilant on sea wearing passage. The vessel we all sail on is only in turmoil when we are away from home on a hundred year voyage.

To the creatures and beasts who spew malice drudgery and fill the thoughts of our culture,
like a bucket on a rainy day. Enslaving with each drop, continuously overflowing until the rain stops.
Over-consumption becomes normality, I ask where are the hand cuffs?

Perhaps we can find something more to give life too and continue growing.
isn’t it true that all must need to consume? But how much consuming do we need to consume.
Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could make our own food? Much like photosynthesis for the Superman.
No more killing of animals, those that appear anthropomorphic much like myself.
Baaa! The sheep whimpers. May the people on the vessel echo the words eternally so that we will not forget the beauty of the sound when the sheep goes to the ground.

The artist is being eaten away,
and the muses are crying.
Cannibals.

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