Lung Cancer, Coffee, and Love


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Laughter fills the great hall of my pulmonary.
Smoke rolls in like the great adversary.
Polluting and drugging the alveoli,
While the milk and coffee soothes the burn,
The thought of you is all I yearn.

Isn’t it enough that the young never die?
Or is it the crazy that live forever?
Either way young and crazy is a concoction that I’d like to try.
Wouldn’t it be marvelous to sign up for that kind of life.
Her words echoed through the prison bars of my mind.
It wouldn’t be life if you weren’t by my side…echoing, shaking, echoing through out time.

The children gather, as steam rises into the cold winter sky.
The trees grow, the birds sing, and the lilacs paint a surreal scene.
How nice it would be to stay young, How nice it would be to grow old.
The two differ, but are seen throughout time as a lie.
The universe is a blessing, and the beauty is unrelenting.
Life is our gift, and love is the prize.

A Thought of Fruition


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Urge us to feel! To love, to notice the stars above.
Fight us, when we become stagnant, unevolved, and dead.
Let the sweet melodies of the wind serenade our souls,
Help us begin to understand that life was never meant to be dull.
Cut the bands from our wrist, and free our hearts.
Purge us from our consumption, hate, and greed to start.
Let the word go forth into the streets that we are alive, awakened, and progressing.
No more war, famine, and hunger.
We will no longer let our powers slumber.
The blood in my veins pours out onto this page,
as we are royalty and cannot be caged.
The world is harsh, unrelenting and cruel,
Let us work together to become a magnificent tool.
Fixing the evil, educating the ignorant, and cleansing the cesspool we find in each of us.
We are mankind and our strength lies within ourselves.
Urge us to lust for life,
To live without doubts, indecency, and malice.
Let fruition come to us and let us start to believe again.
The start begins with us.

Top 25 Songs of 2013


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Here is my annual music in review. I decided to go the song route this time as it was difficult for me to find the time to listen to everything that came out. This year was a strange and beautiful year for music. I hope everyone enjoys my list and feel free to share with me your favorite songs of 2013.

1- Kanye West Song: New Slaves
2- Arcade Fire Song: After Life (Runner Ups: Reflektor, We Exist, Supersymmetry)
3- Earl Sweatshirt Song: Chum
4- Aloe Blacc Song: Wake Me Up (Runner Up: The Man)
5- Devendra Banhart Song: Never Seen Such Good Things
6- Eminem Song: Rap God
7- Laura Marling Song: I Was An Eagle (Runner Up: Take the Night off)
8- Blood Orange Song: You’re Not Good Enough
9- Parquet Courts Song: Stoned and Starving
10- Pearl Jam Song: Getaway
11- Serengeti Song: Directions
12- Portugal. The Man: Song: Sea of Air (Runner Up: Modern Jesus)
13- Deltron 3030 Song: City Rising from the Ashes
14- Big Sean Ft: Kendrick Lamar and Jay Electronica Song: Control
15- Hiam Song: The Wire
16- MGMT Song: Cool Song No. 2 (Runner up: Alien Days)
17- Deerhunter Song: Back to the Middle (Runner Ups: Sleepwalking, Punk)
18- Captain Murphy Ft: Viktor Vaughn, Earl Sweatshirt, and Thundercat Song: Between Villains
19- Blue Sky Black Death Song: V
20- Justin Timberlake Mirrors (Runner Ups: Tunnel Vision, Space Coupe, Suit & Tie)
21- Tyler the Creator Song: Cowboy (Runner Up: Bimmer)
22- A$ap Rocky Song: Long Live A$ap (Runner Up: Hell)
23- Jay Z Song: Heaven
24- Queens of the Stone Age Song: Keep Your Eyes Peeled
25- Bill Callahan Song: Small Plane

Lackadaisical Inside Me


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Lackadaisical Inside Me
By: Cam

Tonight the devil laughs at my lackadaisical mood.
His uncut jagged fingernails point at me, damning me from my work.
I have no desire to write, paint, create.
The animal inside is winning the battle tonight.
I want to sit and let the powers at hand win.
I am feeling alone; at least I have my shadow.
What might be worse is I’m afraid to be around people.
I’m confrontational.Pompous.
Pretentious, with nothing to show and maybe nothing to give.
All my confusion, my paranoia, and unwillingness cloud my mind.
I am a child trying walk through the valley of darkness.
No guidance, but a grudge that helps me put one foot in front of the other.
A desire to get back what I lost.
Tonight I have fallen from my shadow, lost in a world of television and failure.
Pornography whispers to the animal inside of me,
Fuck and beat until you want to sleep.
Everyone else does it, everyone else is the same.
You will not overcome the overpowering spell on mankind.
Walk the same path, be the same path, become nothing, as all of this is bleeding inside me.
There is only one way to find me, a blank page, and the start of my fingers typing.
As redemption only comes through action.

Lou Reed The Boundary Pusher


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Today I awoke to some tragic news. Lou Reed has passed away. Its truly as is if this bright light has faded and is no longer shining with us. There are moments in my life that I can specifically remember when artists, Legends, have passed away. Johnny Cash being one of them. I was in high school ditching my religious class (I did that often) listening to the radio in the parking lot. The announcer came on and said “Johnny Cash has passed away.” It shouldn’t have been that big of a shock to me since I knew he had been bed ridden for several weeks, but it was a shock. The radio then played Johnny Cash’s cover of “Hurt.” That seemed appropriate to me at the time, and it almost brought me to tears as Johnny was a big influence to me. As for Lou, it is almost exactly the same instance. I will remember the exact place I was in when I found out that he has moved on.
Sunday’s are days that I find to be relaxing as I get to some what sleep in. After a long night of writing, smoking, and drinking I don’t think I was prepared for the news. I got up and of course turned on my computer to start editing what I had written last night. Always trying to delete the trash and keep the gold. I just so happened to find my mind wondering while in the process and clicked on to Facebook. That’s the last way you want to find out that a Legend has moved on. However it was nice to see so many posts, news articles, and pictures of his historic career. As a fan I have been listening to Velvet Underground for several years now. Lou and Velvet have become amazingly influential to me over the past couple of years. The life of Lou Reed astonished me. He was a boundary pusher, a road paver, and an exceptional artist.
It is always rare to find a man who lives “on the wild side.” People like Lou are diamonds among the coals. I can’t help but feel a deep sadness that he has gone. Its funny in life that the things you love always seem to leave and maybe I’m a little bit funny for thinking of Lou Reed as someone who I’ve loved but it seems true to me that you never know how much you love something until its gone. I’ve never been to a concert of his, and I’ve never held a conversation or even met him in person. However the countless hours of listening to his music has made me feel attached to him and I like to think that I have come to know him as a person or at least as an artist. He has changed the way I look at music and Lou Reed will be missed greatly.

I figured I would share a few of my favorites from his catalog today in all this. May he be remembered forever, as that is the goal of every artist.


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